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Gorilla Beast Mode, Fat and Not Happy, Weight Loss Challenge, David Goggins
By Steve Carbonara February 19, 2025
Ok, so I guess the best motivator isn’t just putting myself behind in the challenge, like many of you, I am struggling with the mindset and the willpower it is going to take to get this done. So, what’s the answer? David Goggins is the answer! ...
Gorilla beast mode, fat and not happy, weight loss challenge, gained weight
By Steve Carbonara February 17, 2025
Being fat sucks, it really does. Here I am, starting day 17 of this 90 day challenge and I’m back at 295lbs. How is that possible? ...
By Steve Carbonara February 2, 2025
Weighed in 2-2-25 at 9am at 292.2 The thing about being obese is that it is really easy to lose weight. It’s also very easy to gain weight. Over the past few years I have seen my weight go up or down 10 lbs. over a weekend, once your body is ‘out of control’ you lose all normal when it comes to controlling your weight...
By Steve Carbonara February 1, 2025
The Gorilla part of me is mad, it seems like my time being Fat & Happy has come to an end, it was one helluva run, I gotta say. It’s been a bit since my near death experience and my, ‘I need time to catch my breath, period, and the holiday season is over — so it is FINALLY time! Time to lose weight and get back to being what...
Ok, last post of preachy, sermon-like content, I realize how this all comes across. I’ve been told t
By Steve Carbonara January 6, 2025
Ok, last post of preachy, sermon-like content, I realize how this all comes across. I’ve been told that my presentation is Angry, Utopian, Redundant and Unclear. So let’s address those comments, as I believe I am speaking for the average patient across this nation. For some background, I’ve been working in healthcare IT since 1999. I have worked in 46 states, across all of the major cities and nearly 1,000 smaller cities and towns. For nearly 7 years I drove 1,500 miles per week at minimum and then for another 7 years I flew 3 weeks a month across the nation — point being that I’ve had 5,000 breakfasts and lunches at diners, talking with ‘the average American’ and hearing the stories of this nation. As you may guess, I’m not shy — and nothing is better than talking with the five 80 year olds sitting at the diner every morning at 6 a.m. in some small town. You hear stories going back decades, of what we were and what has changed.
Ultra-processed foods are killing us
By Steve Carbonara January 3, 2025
So near death experiences aren’t the only failure of healthcare, like I said earlier, there are many stakeholders to blame — or hold to account. Where did it start for you as a patient, or as an employee (insider) working in healthcare, or as a caregiver trying to keep your parents healthy and alive?
Mask mandates forced on patient's that cannot breathe - denied health care
By Steve Carbonara January 2, 2025
Quick recap: I almost died, and United is poorly run and focused only on earnings and not patients. Done — let’s move forward. So how did I get in that hospital bed? Who was to blame? Well, let’s start with this one fun fact — even though there are many people to blame for many things in your life, the first person who needs to be blamed in every scenario is you. Personal accountability (an obligation or willingness to accept responsibility or to account for one's actions) is the focus of Patients First. We all need to take responsibility (able to answer for one's conduct and obligations) for ourselves before we can demand it from the other stakeholders in healthcare.
Heallthcare Insurance Costs
By Steve Carbonara December 31, 2024
So where were we? Oh yeah, I got discharged on Saturday, August 3rd, at 2 p.m., and by Monday, August 5th, at 1 p.m. I received a denial of obligation from United. How did it get there that fast? Did they hire someone to drive it to me to make sure I knew they were going to screw me? Having a letter telling me that there was a ‘restrictive clause’ on page 50 of a 70-page contract that I had no right to review and negotiate was hilarious! It was better knowing that they recorded my two calls with their support team that clearly told me that my coverage allowed immediate use — remember, they told me the only ‘restriction’ was that the payment needed to be processed! I cannot wait to get those recordings during discovery — not sure if we will get there, but I know I’m not caving in just because someone threatens me with ‘going to collections!’
By Steve Carbonara December 27, 2024
Ok, the last post was a bit evangelical, I’m sorry, but I didn’t know where else to start. Should I have just jumped into telling you how bad my healthcare experience was, or should we be evaluating this discussion from a more holistic perspective than just blaming all of the bad actors? I guess we’ll never know, but thanks for coming back!
By Steve Carbonara December 23, 2024
Why a gorilla you may ask, well, let’s just say I’ve been called that a few times in my life. While I can be polished and executive in my delivery, I am also very blunt and just as aggressive as I am kind in my tone. As I write my personal story, and as I speak as a patient, I believe that full transparency is key, and that means full emotional transparency, as healthcare is not just ‘data and facts,’ it is also our mind, our emotions and our spirit — healthcare is as much love as it is any medical device, doctor or drug.
Patients First Foundation
By Steve Carbonara December 19, 2024
Introducing the Patients First Foundation and "Patient Zero," Steve Carbonara shares his personal healthcare journey to spotlight systemic issues and inspire change. This blog calls for patient stories and professional insights to build a collaborative movement for patient-centered care, accountability, and solutions that prioritize health over profits.

Gorilla Challenge: Fat & Happy? Part 2

So I weighed in last night at 10 pm because I wanted to start tracking the ‘official start’ of my process. I am kicking this 90 day challenge off today with coffee this morning and some soup during the day, and will begin a 5 day water fast tomorrow on the 2nd, so big things should come soon but as always there will be some pain.


Like any fat person, I had to have one last hoorah, so I made sure to have some of the old favorites one last time before kicking off 90 days of ‘reorganizing’ my physical body, but also my mental and emotional life.


I have fasted in the past and I can tell you, it is much more than a physical thing, it truly hits you mentally and emotionally as well. My longest fast to date is 25 days. During this challenge I am going to try to fast for the first 45 days, with nothing more than water and certain detoxes that I will present at the time I start them. The goal is to give my body a full rest and reset, allowing it to take a break from all that digesting work I’ve asked it to do these past few years!


I am not a doctor and I am not giving anyone any health advice, so please have fun watching this process but don’t go replicating it and hurting yourself. To be honest, most of my physician friends think my method is too drastic and tell me to focus on taking 2-3 lbs off per week, like everyone else does. I’m just not built that way, I’m more of a ‘in for a penny, in for a pound’ type of guy, which correlates to this effort nicely!

After 45 days of fasting I believe I’ll switch over to juicing, taking all calories as juiced fruits and vegetables. The goal will be to do this until the end of the 90 day challenge.  Along the way I will be taking supplements like Creatine, Amino Acids and other vitamins and minerals, all will be clearly indicated as I may call this the Beast Mode Protocol, maybe we can build a national phenomenon like Andy Frisella did with his program, 75 Hard, why not, right?


In the end Ralph Waldo Emerson said it best, “Without ambition one starts nothing. Without work one finishes nothing. The prize will not be sent to you. You have to win it.”  Well it’s time to win, and as I speak for myself, I hope you’ll join me and speak for yourself — let us speak as a Patients First contingent, and if we speak loud enough maybe we can speak as a nation. A nation that is finished with excuses for poor health, a nation finished with paying Trillions of Dollars for a ‘sick care’ system that does not serve us, a nation of people looking to serve one another, support one another and deliver for one another a better system than the one we have allowed to be built to date.


Until next time…(yes I want a cookie)

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